Surprises

So yesterday I did it!  I ate flawlessly on time and on nutrition with every meal.  I even rode my mom's stationary bike after work and before class.  I was very impressed with myself.  This morning I decided that I had to face the scale and see what damage I had done since my last weigh in on April 17. I was expecting the worse, thinking I was going to weigh in at 170lbs which would be a gain of 4.5.  To my surprise, I lost 2 lbs!  I am now 163.5lbs down a total of 36.5 lbs.  Needless to say I shocked myself.  Even though I was eating badly I continued to track.  I think that still gave me some accountability with the amount I was consuming.  Today is a new day and I am looking forward to keeping up the hard work.  My family is doing a fitness challenge where you set your own goals and try to achieve them together!

Here are my goals for the challenge:

Final goals, run a 5k in under 30 minutes, lose my final 15 lbs and find a comfortable maintenance plan. My weekly goal is to workout 5 days a week for an hour doing at least 30 min of HIIT.  I also want to complete my other two fitness competitions ending June 17th and June 22nd!

I wasn't going to write my goals down, but it seems like a very important step!  Feel free to share your goals!  

Since my job is only seasonal and tax season just ended, my last day of work is in 2 days!  I have decided to take a big load of classes this summer and not work.  I am so excited and nervous seeing how this is my first time since I was 15 that I haven't worked!  I hope to really focus on my fitness and health the whole time!

Here is a picture of my before pants!  They are falling off as I walk!  I feel like a gangster!

Re-motivation

Well, my "cheat week" surprised me.  I thought since I was so miserable eating foods that were bad for me that i would have no problem getting back on the band wagon.  Man was I wrong.  I have been struggling badly for the last two weeks, but I am determined to get back to it.  I understand that minor slip ups happen.  The most important thing is realizing the problem and getting re motivated.  While I have been struggling I have noticed and learned so much about myself.  I would have to admit that I have a problem with food.  Hiding it to eat it, lying that i didn't eat as much as i did, and pretending that it really wasn't that bad.  These were all habits I had practiced before I lost my weight.  The only problem is i did not recognize them as being a "problem" at that time.  These last two weeks, i reverted back to all of those negative practices and I felt so bad.  Aside from feeling sick bad, i felt embarrassed and ashamed of my actions.  I felt like I had relapsed and my family was too nice to call me out on it.  I am shocked to think that is how I lived my life before.  I do not want to continue on like this and I know that the ONLY one that can fix that is me.  No one else.  I believe in myself enough to know that I have the power within to accomplish any and all of my dreams, not just pertaining to weight loss.  I am ready to complete my journey and move on to maintaining this lifestyle.  No matter what your struggle is, remember that you are the only one that can help yourself.  The power lies within.