Well,
my "cheat week" surprised me. I thought since I was so
miserable eating foods that were bad for me that i would have no problem
getting back on the band wagon. Man was I wrong. I have been struggling badly for the
last two weeks, but I am determined to get back to it. I understand that
minor slip ups happen. The most important thing is realizing the problem
and getting re motivated. While I have been struggling I have
noticed and learned so much about myself. I would have to admit that I have a
problem with food. Hiding it to eat it, lying that i didn't eat as much
as i did, and pretending that it really wasn't that bad. These were all
habits I had practiced before I lost my weight. The only problem is i did
not recognize them as being a "problem" at that time. These
last two weeks, i reverted back to all of those negative practices and I felt
so bad. Aside from feeling sick bad, i felt embarrassed and ashamed
of my actions. I felt like I had relapsed and my family was too nice to
call me out on it. I am shocked to think that is how I lived my life
before. I do not want to continue on like this and I know that the ONLY
one that can fix that is me. No one else. I believe in myself
enough to know that I have the power within to accomplish any and all of my
dreams, not just pertaining to weight loss. I am ready to complete my
journey and move on to maintaining this lifestyle. No matter what your struggle is, remember
that you are the only one that can help yourself. The power lies within.
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