In other news, THIS SHIT IS HARD. I am tired, discouraged, sad, lonely, and quite honestly I could use a strong drink or 7. I have been really balancing my love of food vs my wanting to be fit and healthy. I think to myself that being overweight is doable. I can learn to find flattering clothes and not be insecure. Now please don't misunderstand me, I love myself and who I am, but when I was thinner and healthy I felt so alive and amazing! I want that feeling again. I want it more than I want to drink, I want it more than I want to snack, and I want it way more than I want to sit on my ass and watch TV. I saw this on Pinterest and it made so much sense.
Also, my lovely friend Lisee showed me how she made a fitspo collage for the background on her phone so I made one for my lock screen and one for my wall paper with some things that inspire me.
I used some ecards and pictures of myself when I was in LOVE with myself. I know I can get back there and this little reminder when I open my phone helps :)