I am so tired. In case that wasn't clear with my title. Yesterday, I took a bit of a cheat day. I didn't go to the gym, I ate pizza, and drank beer. For the first time in about 3 weeks I think it is safe to say I got drunk. Honestly, I felt like shit today. Not from a hangover, but depression rather. I felt terrible and all I wanted to do was say, "Fuck it, I want jack n the box or in n out. Greasy crappy gross food". BUT I thought about were I wanted to be and I then thought 2 things, #1... you are going to be pissed at yourself if you eat that. #2... Imagine where you want to be. I didn't eat the crappy food, I got a mini turkey sandwich from Jersey Mikes, with no oil. Mini accomplishment #1. After I got home and finished my food, I wanted to watch TV. But I gave myself a time limit of 1 hour to relax then I got my butt up and went to the gym. Mini accomplishment #2. When I am overweight, the gym scares me. I FEEL like I do not belong there and that people are talking about me. I emphasize the word feel, because often times people like to interject there and tell me how I'm crazy. I KNOW others do not think that, but that doesn't change me from feeling that way. Now, I have referenced this before when I started losing weight the first time. I watched a Jaime Eason video on bodybuiding.com and she makes a nice reminder that I go to the gym for me and no one else. I don't need to worry about what they think. I am there bettering myself. Plus if they are focused on me, their workout must be suffering. :P How many people are scared of the big tall scary step machine at the gym? *Raises Hand* After my first half hour of cardio I went on the big horrific step machine and made it my bitch. I only did 10 minutes, but it really got my heart rate going and sweat dripping off my body. I finished that, did an additional hald hour of cardio, stretched,then went home. Look at the amount of sweat that I racked up today!
I am worn out and couldn't even go to the gym twice today. Night!
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